I watch alotta TV shows and when I see people kiss I think of you
and the first time we kissed
and as soon as my dumb head replays that memory
my chest tightens and my eyes well up
I hate that sadness and longing can cause physical pain
and I wish I didn’t still miss you sometimes.
I’m really sad and I miss my friends and I’m so lonely and this feels horrible.
I finished Orange is the New Black though. So there’s that.